Watching the world...

Within my silence

Within my silence,
there's a scream left and lost,
i did not scream it when the pain flew through me
i did not scream it when the chance was there and
the pain was whole... and now, scattered all over my body,
as autumn leaves on the floor... it knives every inch of me,
it shames me and reminds me at every waking moment
of the one thing that could have actualy saved me from myself,
the one thing that could have had some purpose in this existence of mine..
What if it's true, what if i did let slip away the one chance I had at experiencing
eternal love, at being someone that mattered...
The scream remains and will remain here,
Within my silence.