Do dia para a noite a minha vida mudou... mudou e nem sei explicar bem como. Sei que estou a tentar que mude para melhor, só não sei se estou a conseguir. Sinto-me "atolada" em projectos ou pseudo-projectos. Quero fazer tantas coisas e não posso. Não sou uma pessoa calma, e deixo que as mais pequenas coisas me afectem. Neste momento é a busca de emprego, busca essa que passa por talvez ter quer sair do país. Fico entusiasmada com a ideia e ao mesmo tempo completamente aterrorizada. E em nada ajuda o facto de ser uma naba a seleccionar informação... chego a um ponto que só me apetece gritar e partir o computador com um martelo... tanta coisa para ler, tanta coisa que de um momento para o outro pode decidir tudo para o bem ou para o mal... sinto-me perdida mesmo...
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I Feel Like Screaming
My life changed from one day to the other... it changed and I can't even really explain how. I know I'm trying to change for the better, I just don't know if im succeeding. I feel swamped in projects, or pseudo-projects. There's so much I want to do and can't. I'm not a calm person, and I let the smallest things affect me. Right now it's the job hunt, which might lead me to leave the country. I get excited about the idea of doing that but at the same time I get completely terrified. And it's no help the fact that I suck at searching for the right information.... I reach a point that I feel like screaming and smashing the computer with a sledgehammer... so much to read, so much that from one moment to the next can decide everything, for better or for worse... I just feel really lost...
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I Feel Like Screaming
My life changed from one day to the other... it changed and I can't even really explain how. I know I'm trying to change for the better, I just don't know if im succeeding. I feel swamped in projects, or pseudo-projects. There's so much I want to do and can't. I'm not a calm person, and I let the smallest things affect me. Right now it's the job hunt, which might lead me to leave the country. I get excited about the idea of doing that but at the same time I get completely terrified. And it's no help the fact that I suck at searching for the right information.... I reach a point that I feel like screaming and smashing the computer with a sledgehammer... so much to read, so much that from one moment to the next can decide everything, for better or for worse... I just feel really lost...